I really haven't posted anything real, have I?
Upon reading Bobby's (acquaintance of mine) blog, he mentioned something about relationships. Guys. Technically, if I tried, I can get anyone I want. I really could. I mean my phone is always ringing and it just happens to be a member of the opposite sex. Quite honestly, I'm not even attracted to 99.9% of you. It's not just looks. But the whole "personality" plane too. That guy who happens to be in that .1% is my ex, Shane. Yup. The very one.
"Dev! He was horrible to you!"
You only say that cause you just happened to be around on the time he hurt me, and quite honestly it was stupid to get emotional over. You see my bracelet in my profile picture? Both of them? One of them says "Devon ♥ Shane" the other is one he made. I still have those. I'm going to start wearing them again too. Yes, I know he's a jerk, but he's MY jerk. I wasn't kidding when I said "I love you". I still do. Truly.
Marriage is out of the question. Not now at least. We still have alot of growing up to do. I rather be his best friend right now anyways. We have more fun that way. In fact, there is so much less pressure. It wasn't that much really to begin with. But it was there, and we didn't like it. So, it nearly ruined us.
I have alot to fix between to the two of us cause I'm the one who started the war. War is over (I think), time to rebuild.
Lemme tell you a secret. I'm going where ever he goes. Mhm. That's why I haven't jumped into college like the rest of my comrades. I know what I'm doing I just have to wait for the city he's going to choose. I'm pretty sure he's going to stay close to home. If he does that's cool. I already know where I'm going. God knows where my path is going to take me.
*sigh*
That's what's been transpiring in my head for MONTHS now. Thought I should finally explain my weird and irrational actions.
I love him.
~Miss Devon
"It's remarkable how similar the pattern of love is to the pattern of insanity." ~Anonymous.
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